CPJ91

It's in times like these that people lose their faith in God. A situation so dense and so real will either pull you closer or push you away. I feel my faith    any little that I had remaining being pulled apart by its torn, worn, re-sewn seams. It's in times like these that we are reminded where we come from, confronted with who we are today, and shown why we are who we are. It's in times like these that I question my own strength and wonder how much more I can, and should, have to handle. It's in times like these that I become selfish and self pitying. I become boastful and arrogant and somehow, I suddenly become hyper-aware of ho

It's 2 in the morning I can't sleep cause it's cold on your side where you should be I didn't say anything I bit my tongue I just stay quiet but you know there's something wrong I'm alone now and I'm running out of flesh it's not a good thing I'm not at my best My nights are getting darker myself I cannot control My body's growing weaker my heart not currently whole So why do I do this? night after night week after week mind over might I feel like there are many things things you don't tell Perhaps it's just my mind it puts me through hell No matter how much it hurts how many breaths you have to take I wish you would tell me maybe you have, f

I don't know if I believe you. I don't know if I can. I decided while looking into your eyes that you were telling the truth... you became the good guy again. But I came home, I cried, I punched, I cut..    I felt better for a split second. Now I'm questioning again...    why... why would you do this...? why would you do that...? My stomach is burning My heart in my throat My head pounding I don't know what to think of this. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to say. If I should say anything at all. I want to scream I want to cry. I wish I could read minds...    maybe I don't. My mind is going a mile a minute.